Hi friends, how are you doing? Yesterday was a pretty weird day for me. I was having so many thoughts about change and most particularly in relation to my blog. I thought about my journey and what my ultimate goal is and slowly one thought after the other began to creep into my mind. This made me start to question and reconsider everything. I thought maybe this blog name isn’t so great and I should create an entirely new and “better” name? Maybe my layout has been wrong all this time? Maybe I can restart my Instagram? Maybe I’m just wasting my time writing every week when I could be doing something else. I had so many maybe thoughts and it felt so overwhelming that I actually went ahead and started making the changes.
I cancelled my plan on WordPress but thank God I still have all my features available to me until the very last day it was scheduled to renew itself. I deleted my about page along with my email subscriber sign-up (I’m probably going to keep it that way). I deactivated my Instagram page. This was a close one because I came very close to actually deleting it and creating an entirely new one from scratch. I deleted all the drafts and potential blog post ideas I had been saving for weeks. I also activated an entirely new theme on here because somewhere in my mind the new theme looked better than the one I have now. I was frantic when all the changes from my current blog disappeared when I activated the new one. That was my fault entirely because I was under the impression that all my customizations would be transferred to my new site. Thank God I had the sense to copy and paste all my customized css from editor before I changed my theme. I would be in a real pickle right now if I hadn’t.
I just thought I would share the dark side of my blogging journey with you. Not all days are perfect and I don’t always have it together. I’m always giving you advice and encouragement but sometimes I’m a wreck. At this moment I’m very grateful that I copied all my custom css from the editor because if I hadn’t, I would literally be back to square one and probably feeling really guilty and regretful for a silly and temporary decision. I hope you learned something from me and before I go I have a few questions to ask you? How do you handle anxiety when you feel like your creation isn’t good enough? On bad days do you ever get the urge to quit or start all over again? Please feel free to share, your thoughts are always welcome here ❤️ Thank you so much for reading and see you in my next post!